fml.

to be happy is a choice.
apparently it is a choice we should make then WORK FOR IT.
not easy at all when you work almost 12 H per day + oncalls + no weekends off.

after dinner, i'd rush back home, fall asleep only to wake up to the next morning sunshine to get ready to work again.. the am review.
oh wait.. sunshine means im already reaaaliee late ;p
no problem with nourishment though heheh
but i have lost touch with my.. uhm.. i should call it my previous happy and carefree life.
the friends that i have now have the same routine so seeing each other can be difficult at times.
the friends with no oncall career seems like they have better things to do than seeing me :/
not to mention im the-other-half-less, not seeing anyone, knowing anyone potentially possible to be one, and knowing my social skills, i wont meet anyone anytime soon.
and the friends that i really miss are NOWHERE NEAR me.
phonecalls/ym can never replace their presence :(((

i just realized that i havent done my 1 month worth of laundry, my room is in a total mess (nothing new) but this time its worse.. there's only enough trail of space as a pathway from the door to my beloved, ever loyal comfy red sofa bed at one corner of the room, everything else is over the floor. haha
now how to get married at my age hehehe
didnt switch on my lappie for over 2 weeks, no compulsory doses of doramas, missing out on latest doramas, not in touch with any fandom anymore (which defined my life previously hohoho)
only can see beloved parents, sisters n brother once in a while, with baby rebecca growing up so fast.

only the nice ppl i meet during work would make my day.
the nice/normal bosses, sweet staff nurses and great ward-mates.
the nice auntie and uncle patients, who are very accepting, grateful despite the sucky system in sabah's pride - the one collapsing hospital with scattered wards.


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maybe it's just me who is still not working hard enough..
sigh.. towards my own happiness.

btw i'm starting O+G next tuesday.
goodbye to good life and good sleep.. but let's hope all goes well.

on a brighter note..
there's something i look forward to...
april 13th come fast !
cant wait to meet 19A, 19B, 19C !
has anyone taken 20B and 20C yet ?

hehe